selective soliloquy

10.26.2006

mediocrity

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit." - Aristotle

Sometimes it's just hard to listen to the words of a man responsible for around half of the academic college load thrown at you.

This was a happy semester for me. It truly was. I know I went on and on about the sheer toxicity of it all, about how I could never get enough sleep anymore, and about how my eyebags suddenly qualified for taxonomic identification. This was the first year syndrome all over again for me.

I have this thing with first semesters. They're always my worst. During freshman year, i couldn't adjust well to Math 17 (who am I kidding - I just really suck at math), and i ended up being kicked into the backseat of the college standings with a CS average. The next semester, I made it to US status. During sophomore year, my parents got separated. Add Comparative Anatonmy and Math 100 to the mix and lo and behold - the perfect recipe for disaster. The next semester, I got my highest average ever (in all my years of being a student). Pity the OCS made an error in the computation of my grades. But all was good.

This semester I told myself I wouldn't let the syndrome kick in again. So yes, I worked hard. But i also wanted to spend the semester without stressing myself out because from experience, I did better when I was having fun. But yes, I do admit, I had way too much fun this semester. I spent too many nights watching movies, hanging out at coffee shops with friends, watching DVDs, and daydreaming about [certain] people.

So here I am now. My average? US standing. Technically, compared to my previous first semesters, I could say that I've beaten the syndrome. But when I look back and think about how close I was to getting a much higher average, and how much better I could have done (trust me on this), I think I'm being perfectly honest when I say that I need some serious soul searching if I really want to beat this.

*sigh*

Someone give me a hug.

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